My cycle is progressing nicely, which is great news. I have lots of follicles growing and will most likely trigger within the next two days with my egg retrieval 36 hours after trigger. The bad news is, I.am.a.mess.
Nothing bad has happened. I haven't received bad news. I am just done. I am so done with trying to have another baby. I am so tired of our lives revolving around a child that isn't conceived yet or may never be. I hate the drugs. I hate what they do to me. I hate the way I react to things. I am angry. I am sad. I hate not being myself. I miss the "real" me.
I feel like having another child has become an obsession. I want to let it go so bad, but for some reason I keep holding on. I really want to have another child, but this has taken such a toll on our lives, that I don't know how much longer I can hang on.
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