So frustrating

So my RE called to discuss my embryos and the news is so-so. 

She said I responded like a 23 year old egg donor and my whole cycle is text book perfect.  Great!  She also said that 23 out of 26 eggs fertilizing without ICSI was great.  The problem is that with that many embryos, not all of them can be high-quality and they need quality not quantity.  So even though the lab can't really grade the embryos until Day3, from what they saw of them this morning, they thought I was better off doing a 3 day transfer.  I got the whole speech about how some embies don't respond well in a lab and do better is a uterus, but honestly, how do they know that?  It is physically impossible to know that to be true. 

I know this isn't the worst news, but I still feel like I got kicked in the stomach. I will meet with the RE before to discuss my latest report, but I am not optimistic.

Mr. Lovey Pants is crushed and I hate that.  With the odds not in our favor and knowing that this is our one and only shot at IVF, I don't know how I can dig for more strength for me or for him.

How funny that I was so confident, cocky to be exact that I got 26 eggs and 23 fertilized?  I said I was a rock star.  Fat chance.  I'm sure someone is laughing at me somewhere.